Still hot, but thinner

On my way to getting healthier and getting my body back. Today is day 51 of journaling in weightwatchers. I have lost 11.4lbs since January 1 and I was able to run 4.35 miles in 45min. So I am slowly getting back to where I would like to be. I know that it is going to take some time. It took me 3 years to gain the weight, hopefully it won't take me that long to get rid of it. I am signing up for a half marathon in June and will be starting long runs in March. I am hoping to get outside to do the long runs and that we don't get anymore snow. The sun is shining today however we are suppose to get a storm tomorrow, but it may just be rain depending on the temperature.

As far as fertility is concern...I am still getting hot flashes and what I like to call mini aniexty attacks. Friday was 23 weeks after my second shot and it is suppose to be out of your system by 24 weeks...I don't think that is going to be the case for me. Night sweats, hot flashes, and insomnia are still an issue. I am sleeping better since I started running, so that is a good motivating factor. I have starting reading a book called Conquering Infertility and it has a great section on stress relieving exercises. We I have trouble falling asleep or wake up in all crazy in the middle of the nite I slow myself down and do one of the exercises. The authors made an excellent metaphor about stress and your body. Think of a deer running in front of you when you are driving and all the things your body does to respond to this "fright". When you are under stress that does not go away aka infertility...you do not give your body a chance to return to a calm state. It is as if a deer is running in front of you over and over again. This can do crazy things to your body including lowering your immune defenses, and putting undo stress on your body which can effect fertility. So I am trying to use the mind/body techniques throughout the day and at night when I feel my anxiety and stress start to take over.

I am planning on calling my doctor in the beginning of March if my cycle still hasn't returned. When I started the medication he said March...so hopefully that is the case.

I am taking a School Law class and learning a lot from it. Nathan is doing well in school, has signed up for the Praxis in social studies, and is starting to get things together for student teaching.

As with everything our life is busy and I can't beleive that it is going to be March soon. I am looking forward to spring and to my first summer not working.